Suffering and Hope

I don't want your pity
Spare me your sympathy
I just want release
To have these feelings cease
Cause even the tears that came
Would not relieve the pain
That I feel inside
I just want to die

Why do I feel this way?
Can't I just be okay
I want to keep on living
I want to keep believing
That I can feel some hope
Continuing to cope
With all the negatives
And make them positives

But I remain struggling
As I go on juggling
With everything around me
The darkness now surrounds me
I cannot give in to It
Cannot give up and quit
No matter how hard it gets
The best has not come yet

So It can continue trying
My hope will not be dying
Sometimes It gets intense
But I still have repentance
and...
A peace that is eternal
A love that is immortal
The truth that makes me live
For the joy that He will give

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